I'm currently making a very difficult decision. I don't want anyone to be angry, because I haven't made my mind up yet...but...I might leave dA for good.

My resoning is some what...odd, but I'm not so sure I can bare to stay in a place that became so...hurtful. You're comments are all lovely, and I enjoy your work, however...ever since I joined I've been experiencing more and more agony. I know if I had not joined, maybe things would have not become as bad as they are. I joined in June, on my old account...I was hoping that things would change for the best...to freely express myself happily. But sadly, since (Both) of us joined, things have been awful.

Writing is a good outlet, this I can agree on. Because while writing a new story I found myself styling it in such a way that I say this is the city I was brought too, and once here I was alone. I worry about who sees what I'm submitting, and I don't think I can really handle being stalked anymore. Mocked anyways. Even I've changed in an unfavourable way. I keep wishing things would get better, but right now that feels very off.

I adore all of you, and thank you for putting up with me. If I do leave...and come back...I'll try to find as many of you as I can. I hate changing accounts, and I can't say I'll even be doing that. I'd appreciate if people would just help me weigh the pro's and cons as opposed to being yelled at for leaving...if I leave.

Remember: I have yet to decide if I am, in fact, really leaving.